I’ve had a lot of moments in my life that have thrown me backwards.  With the rest of the nation, I watched the Twin Towers fall and I watched the Ninth Ward struggle to recover after Katrina.  On my own, I watched my parents marriage crumble and watched a dear friend die of cancer.

In every case, I felt so helpless because I couldn’t DO anything.  I’m a doer.  I act – I think in verbs: help, aid, empower, DO.  Crises I can’t do anything about drive me insane.

I found out early this evening that my aunt miscarried her much loved, much wanted, much cherished second child.

I can’t say anything to make it better.  I can’t do anything to make it better.

…this sucks.

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